Just when I left home, I suddenly became worried about the decision to leave and its consequences. I then felt anxious and a little bit confused because I wasn’t completely prepared. Probably if I had reflected in advance about all the implications I would have been more ready and confident during this particular moment of the departure.
Arranging the departure was not easy!
my family collected some money for my travel. They had to sell a small field where we used to cultivate some vegetables and they borrowed some money from a relative. My father got in touch with someone who organized the journey.
I had to join a group of persons who were leaving the country like me. I knew that it would have been a hard journey, full of difficulties because I heard some stories of persons who left and never sent back any news to their family or other whose travel lasted years and at the end they were sent back to the village with nothing but their desire to leave again.
But I had also heard of some positive stories of friends who had left and were living in comfortable houses with water, electricity and a big television. They were able to send every month something at home
When I knew that I was leaving my village, I did not plan or think much about my daily life in the new country but I had a very clear idea about my personal life project. Once arrived, little by little, I reviewed it according to my present situation and my original expectations, some of which were far from the reality. So I tried to think about what I had learnt during my experience to adapt myself to the new conditions. Following my personal project with flexibility helped me to face unexpected and new situations, achieve my objectives and feel satisfied.
An old necklace that belonged to my ancestors has a very special and symbolic meaning for me. I have kept it with me until now because the symbol that represents is valid also in the new place. Keeping it close to me, above all when I feel down, helps me in getting oriented at any point of my life and in connecting with my inner world.
When I decided to leave, I had some information according to which I imagined my future possibilities. I received this information mainly from other people, from the TV and through internet. But the reality that I found on my arrival was different, which may mean that my information was insufficient or even mistaken. I have learnt that it is very important to make sure that the information I receive from others is truthful, since most of my decisions depend on how much I know.
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